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Dog rocking back and forth

Dog rocking back and forth

Dog rocking back and forth in the dark. In the distance a howling.

Door slams. Silence.

How long?

Somewhere, something makes a noise.

Door opens, shut.

Silence.

Door opens, shut.

Silence.

The next time it happened, I told my husband.

The dog was gone. He told me he hadn't seen him in days. I knew it was him. The door hadn't slammed.

I thought we'd had it.

When it happened the next time, I started carrying pepper spray.

Then I started sleeping with a baseball bat next to the bed.

Then I stopped sleeping at all.

I told my husband about the dog. He told me to take a Valium.

My mother sd, “You need a new dog,” then laughed. “If you want to have a crazy woman, you know what to do.”

I told her it was no use, I was going to take a Valium.

But she knew I was lying.

I had to.

It was me.

My head.

It felt like a hand.

No.

A fist.

I told my husband the door was shut.

I told him I could hear him howling.

I told him the dog had been gone for days.

I told him I'd gone to the house the day after I'd told him about the dog. The door was shut, I thought, but the dog was gone.

The next day, I went to the police.

I told them everything.

They listened.

They asked me questions.

The dog had been found dead. He was old.

My husband sd I'd imagined it.

He had never seen the dog in his life.

The officer told me to tell my husband to take a Valium.

My mother had gotten us a dog.

But it was no use.

I still thought about my husband, my dog, my parents.

There was no one to help me.

I would die alone.

The next day, when the police called my house, my husband sd he had seen the dog.

He had heard him howling.

But the door had not been shut.

When the officer called me, I was in a house of mirrors.

The mirrors were not just reflective.

They were real.

They held images of what had happened, images of the things that were happening now.

There were people I'd never met before, people who'd never existed before.

I'd done what I thought I had to do.

My family had abandoned me.

But I had something of theirs.

A memory.

They had taken it from me, and now they were asking me to give it back.

If I wanted to save myself, I would give it back.

I would give it back to the things that had taken it away.

And I would do it fast.

The door slammed.

I told them I'd seen the door shut, and heard it open.

I told them the dog had been gone.

I told them I'd gone to the house the day after I'd told them about the dog. The door was shut, but the dog had gone.

I told them I had never seen the dog, but my husband had seen it. He had seen it howling, I told them.

He had seen it shut the door, I told them. He had seen it open it.

He'd heard the howling, I told them.

He had heard it shut the door, I told them. He'd heard it open it.

My husband had sd he heard the dog howling.

My husband had sd he saw the dog, but my dog had been gone.

The officer asked me to tell my husband to take a Valium.

They asked me why I hadn't taken a Valium myself.

I told them it was because of the dog.

The dog had been gone for days.

I didn't tell them he'd been dead.

I thought if I told them they would take the dog.

I thought if I told them I had seen the dog they would take him.

But they asked me to tell them when I saw him.

The door slammed.

The dog had been dead.

I told them I had been in the house when the door had been shut.

They asked me to tell them if I had seen the door shut.

And I told them I hadn't seen the door shut.

I told them I'd seen the door shut.

But I hadn't.

The door had been shut.

I told them I'd never seen the dog.

And he'd been gone.

The officer asked me to tell my husband to take a Valium.

He told me they'd send someone over.

The next day, when they told me to tell my husband to take a Valium, I did what I thought I had to do.

I told my husband to take a Val


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